Part 5:
The Narration – Stillness
Trauma is painful.
It drove me inward—into solitude, into the refuge of my own mind. It made trust difficult. It made it hard to ask for help. So I learned to rely on myself.
But as the years pass, something inside softens. Slowly, I begin to see it differently—not as a curse, but as a teacher. Trauma has given me the gift of introspection, the power of creativity, the deep pull toward meaning.
It gently, persistently invites me to set down the weapons I turn on myself—and to reach instead for forgiveness, compassion, connection, love.
Healing is not a destination.
It’s a practice. A rhythm.
It begins again and again—as many times as it takes.
I remember one moment vividly.
My friend Giora and I were standing atop a crematorium in Birkenau, just above the flat green grasslands. The forest stretched far beyond. There was no one else there—just us, the land, the past. It was late autumn. The sky hung heavy with gray clouds, but at the edge, a thin silver lining glowed. The green fields gave no clue to the ash buried beneath.
We were talking quietly, as children of survivors do. I had just made an odd reference to General MacArthur—“I shall return!”—when something stopped us mid-sentence.
A young girl was walking across the field, not far from where we stood. She wore a white skirt, a pale yellow sweater, a backpack. Probably on her way home from school.
We fell silent.
The scene unfolded like a black-and-white film—except for the girl, alive in color, luminous against the muted world.
“Surreal,” Giora murmured.
The strange thing was how ordinary it felt.
The same sky. The same earth.
Then, now, always.
And in that moment, I realized something:
I can choose how to see it.
I can meet it with anger, with grievance, with the weight of sacrilege—how dare this place be reduced to a shortcut?
Or I can see her as something else: young, pure, innocent.
A living thread of color woven through sorrow.
She is hope.
She is the future.
The Dance – Stillness Rhythm
The hall dims. The music softens.
A circle of dancers moves in deliberate, unhurried motion. Each shift, each breath, is measured in inches—quiet waves of attention. Bodies lean, brush, fold, creating a fragile tapestry of grace.
One by one, they slip away, fading like dusk into nightfall.
Until only two remain—my companion and I.
We continue, locked in a silent dialogue, an intimate contact dance where our bodies whisper what words cannot hold.
The stage becomes a sanctuary.
Here, we listen with skin and bone, with presence, with trust.
As the final crescendo approaches, the music ebbs—tapering into stillness.
But I remain.
I move slowly, almost imperceptibly—caught between sound and silence, between time and timelessness.
Seconds stretch, become moments, become something beyond measure.
And as the last notes dissolve, I linger—
a figure suspended between worlds,
cradled by the invisible music of what remains.
The Stillness rhythm is not absence—it is presence.
It is the quiet space where breath meets bone, where motion folds into reflection, where we return to ourselves.
Stillness is not about freezing the body,
but softening into deep listening.
It is where clarity and insight emerge—
not by force, but by surrender.
Stillness invites us to let go.
To be here.
To be.