Healing Trauma Through Art

Healing Trauma Through Art: The Transformative Power of Creative Expression

“The artist is inclined to believe that ‘mind can triumph over matter’ because they often feel that their inner realm is certainly more important and often more real to them than the outer physical world.” – Peter Morrel

In my early forties, I went through an existential crisis. Things had to change—or cease. Simply put, I cracked open and had to carve a new path. What follows is the story of how I began to heal trauma through art: how vision slowly took form, how working with materials became a form of alchemy, and how meaning emerged from the act of creation itself.

For some of us, art is not just a calling—it’s a necessity. It becomes the only road to a sense of freedom. Some might even call it salvation.

Narrative art tells a story. It evokes a moment from daily life or draws from religion, folklore, mythology, or history. From Bronze Age cave paintings to medieval tapestries and beyond, storytelling through images has always been with us. Yet in the 20th century, abstract art staged a rebellion—rejecting familiar narratives and often dismissing them as unimaginative. Even so, many abstract works continued to carry encoded personal or political messages, requiring insight into the artist’s life or context to be fully understood.

For as long as I can remember, I’ve had an inner dialogue about making and appreciating art. As a child, I watched my mother select fabric, cut patterns from fashion magazines, and sew elegant, custom outfits. Her process taught me that detail, attention, and intention are what bring beauty to life. Two of her sisters were artists—one a painter, the other a maker of collages. Creativity, it seems, runs through my blood. In my youth, I painted. I loved it. But life, as it often does, took me elsewhere.

After many years pursuing a different kind of creativity—entrepreneurship and the search for financial security—I returned to visual art. In 2003, shifting conditions in the high-tech market led me to close Telesys Enterprises, my circuit card distribution company. At the same time, my personal life was in upheaval. I sensed that something deep within me needed tending. Intuitively, I turned to art—not as an escape, but as a way to meet whatever was rising inside.

Fifteen years later, I can say this with certainty: devoting myself to the practice of making art was pivotal in my healing journey. I wasn’t chasing the real or the unreal. I was after something more elusive—the unconscious, the layered self, the quiet transformation that comes when one becomes fully awake.

During my business career, I traveled the globe, visiting electronics manufacturers and working closely with engineers on circuit board designs. I came to see these boards not just as functional tools, but as intricate compositions—microcosms of innovation and design. There was beauty in their precision, a kind of silent elegance in the way they powered everything from smartphones to missile guidance systems. That world shaped me. It gave me a way of seeing.

So when I returned to art, I brought that sensibility with me. I felt drawn to the Light and Space movement that emerged in Southern California in the 1960s—a movement influenced by post-WWII materials like fiberglass, resins, and industrial polymers. Minimalist, luminous, and often futuristic, this work mirrored the aesthetic language I had lived and worked in for years.

I dove in—experimenting with media, enrolling in classes at Santa Monica College, attending workshops. I explored fused glass, plexiglass, printed aluminum. It wasn’t just about learning new skills; it was about reclaiming a part of myself. Each composition became a conversation with my past, my pain, and my hope.

Discovering Plexiglass and the Path to Integration

As I continued exploring new materials and visual languages, a surprising opportunity arose from a more practical need. I first discovered plexiglass while renovating my home. I was looking for a bold, clean, focal-point element to anchor a room—and plexiglass offered just that. Its broad, flat, colorful surface allowed me to mount several painted canvases in a way that felt seamless and striking.

Plexiglass, also known as Polymethyl Methacrylate, has been around since the 1930s. Stronger than traditional glass and available in a variety of colors and thicknesses, it’s commonly used in commercial signage, skylights, and architectural applications. But for me, it became a bridge—linking function, form, and expression.

Not long after that first experiment, I attended a fused glass workshop. When I saw the glass tiles—vibrant, glossy, and tactile—I had a spark of recognition. What if I mounted these fused glass pieces on top of the plexiglass sheets? Both materials shared that same sleek, luminous finish. At the time, I was just playing. I had no idea how far this experimentation would go—or how deeply it would tap into my own story.

I set up a studio in my garage, complete with a large kiln. I immersed myself in the craft, learning everything I could about fusing glass and integrating it with plexiglass into unified compositions. I explored proportion, color, and structure. Fusing allows a forgiving margin—imperfectly cut glass still melts and joins. Plexiglass, however, demanded precision. Each cut had to be exact.

To achieve that, I used Google SketchUp to draft design layouts, which I then transferred to a CNC Laser Cutting Machine—short for Computer Numerical Control. This process allowed me to control each cut with digital precision, minimizing distortion and ensuring every piece fit perfectly. The technicians at Laseronics Advanced Laser Dies were generous with their time and expertise, helping me realize these custom designs.

Over time, I developed my own techniques for assembling the panels—joining the layers, supporting the glass, and designing integrated mounting brackets. Still, it wasn’t until a moment in class that the emotional thread finally revealed itself.

I presented a work composed of four painted canvases, joined by a horizontal line and mounted on a sheet of plexiglass. My teacher, Linda Lopez—whom I regard as a true treasure—looked at the piece and asked, “It’s interesting, but what is your intention?”

That question cracked something open.

Inside, I knew. My intention had always been there—quiet but persistent. It traced back to what had haunted me most of my life: the invisible inheritance of being a second-generation Holocaust survivor.

From Memory to Motion: Touching the Fire

Growing up, I always wanted to know more about my father’s experiences during World War II. But he could never touch the fire. He spoke in broad strokes—facts and dates, names of camps, timelines without emotion. I sensed, even as a child, that the pain, the agony, and the shame were too deep to be named. And yet, they were unmistakably present—like the numbers tattooed on his arm, blunt and permanent.

I understood early on that there were places inside him he couldn’t go. Those layers of memory felt like a black hole—if you got too close, you’d never make it out. What I was left with was imagination. And so, I imagined a lot.

My father survived four different concentration camps. When Jews were transported to the camps, they were packed into cattle trains—standing room only, no food or water. As a boy, I would picture myself inside one of those trains. What would I see? What would I feel? The only relief I could imagine was through the narrow slit in the wooden walls—where I envisioned a wash of color rushing past: green forests, blue lakes, snowy white mountains. I composed a moving symphony of color as a way to survive the image.

In time, I decided to focus on one thing only—the horizon line. Ever-changing, but never-ending. That line became the center of my attention, my meditation, my obsession. I began a Sisyphean journey that spanned several years, creating hundreds of fused glass tiles in different shapes and colors. Each one unique, but all anchored by a single constant: the line.

This became my journey from Auschwitz—as opposed to my father’s journey to Auschwitz. A path toward reconciling the shame, anger, and silence I had carried. Not by fighting those feelings off, which never worked, but by integrating them. By giving them form.

The landscapes I tried to evoke didn’t come from maps or satellite images. They rose from my internal terrain—shaped by both memory and longing. I wasn’t interested in accurately recreating the view from a train window. I was seeking a poetic distortion. A bending of space and time at the service of emotion. For me, this was the true triumph of mind over matter.

Throughout art history, lines have shaped and defined form. There are infinite ways to describe the line between two points. I had to find my way—a way to suggest a horizon line as it appears in nature, while embedding it into the geometrically bold, mathematically precise designs I was creating.

To bridge these worlds, I developed a technique to twist the glass while in its molten state. It’s a thrilling, visceral process—one that literally involves touching the fire. I place a composition of colored glass on a kiln shelf and heat it to 1700°F. At that point, the glass glows a uniform orange-red and becomes fluid enough to move. Then comes the moment: I open the kiln and, using a BBQ spatula, twist the molten glass in its center.

The movement is slow, deliberate, and time-sensitive—there’s only a 10–20 second window before the temperature drops and the glass hardens. After twisting one piece, I reheat the kiln and repeat the process until all are done. This gesture causes colors to blend and streak into patterns that can never be replicated. The final results only reveal themselves hours later, once the kiln returns to room temperature.

It’s always a mystery. Always a surprise. I call it an act of “Let go and let God.”

This process has been a gift—for someone like me, inclined toward precision and tidiness. It forces me to surrender control, to embrace imperfection, to find beauty in the unexpected.

Toward the Indescribable: Rothko, Wiesel, and the Void

The writer and Nobel laureate Elie Wiesel once said: “The Holocaust cannot be described, it cannot be communicated, it is unexplainable. To me, it is a mystical event. I have the feeling almost of sin when I speak about it.”

As I grappled with how to present my own work, Wiesel’s words loomed large. How could I attempt to describe the indescribable? How could I capture the magnitude of devastation without diminishing it—or becoming lost in it? I knew that whatever I created had to speak to my journey, not try to contain the totality of the Holocaust. It had to acknowledge the shadow of six million lost lives while remaining rooted in personal reckoning.

My perspective on art was forever changed in 1982, during a visit to London’s Tate Gallery. There, I encountered Mark Rothko’s Seagram Murals—a moment that still reverberates through me. The paintings were mounted high on warm gray walls, compelling my gaze upward. I sat in the center of the gallery, surrounded by immense rectangles of deep red, dark brown, and rich black. The colors were bold yet feathered, layered with brushstrokes so subtle they seemed to emit light from within.

These weren’t paintings you looked at—they were portals. I entered them. I found myself in silent dialogue with the void, projecting my inner drama and longing onto their shifting depths. Their forms—foggy, floating, mathematically spaced—created a space for meditation. For communion. It felt like a room where higher spirits might dwell.

Mark Rothko, a Jewish-Russian immigrant to the United States, became a central figure in the Abstract Expressionist movement that emerged after World War II. His work, like that of many of his peers—predominantly Jewish artists—reflected an effort to respond to horror through abstraction. Representational art no longer felt sufficient. It was as though they asked, “How can you paint flowers or reclining nudes after Auschwitz and Hiroshima?”

Instead, they turned to the ineffable: scale, space, color, gesture. They painted not what was seen, but what was felt. Their canvases became vessels for collective trauma—wordless, vast, and uncompromising.

For me, Rothko offered a template—not for style, but for intention. His art didn’t try to explain the unexplainable. It made space for it. That was the challenge I chose to embrace.

👉 For a deeper exploration of how intergenerational trauma lives in the body and how it finds voice through creative work, see my essay on intergenerational Holocaust trauma.

A Journey from Shame to Self-Realization

The Holocaust was an industrial-scale killing—a genocide carried out with psychopathic efficiency. Its trauma, especially for survivors and their descendants, lingers across generations and continues to shape the emotional landscape of humanity. As an artist and the child of two Holocaust survivors, I was confronted with a profound dilemma—one that sits at the center of my thought process, work, and voice:

➤ How do I pay homage to the dead, the survivors, and to my own journey of carrying the shadow of this horror?
➤ And how do I create a work of art that doesn’t end in despair, but opens into transformation, resilience, and beauty?

Out of these questions emerged a vision: a multi-media installation housed in a large, high-ceilinged room—an immersive environment designed not to recount facts, but to evoke presence. The installation consists of two primary works, panels mounted along each wall, and synchronized video projections at each corner. Together, they create a powerful visual and emotional field. Visitors are invited into a space that reflects not only my journey, but their own—their pain, their struggles, and the winding path of healing.

The panels extend the full length of each wall, spaced at regular intervals to create a rhythm of continuity. As viewers walk alongside them, they experience a visual journey through shifting color, texture, and tone. Each panel contains fused glass tiles—always horizontal rectangles—echoing the landscapes seen from a fast-moving train. The constant exploration of the line becomes a metaphor: a symbol of movement, of passage, of time. Geography, in this context, becomes emotional terrain.

At each corner of the installation, a looping four-hour video projection anchors the experience. The central footage is from a 2009 Norwegian film documenting a train journey from Bergen to Oslo. The landscape is austere—endless snowfields beneath a cold, gray-blue sky. There is serenity in its monotony. But that serenity fractures each time the train enters a tunnel.

In those dark moments, the screen becomes a portal to a different kind of memory: archival footage and stills from Claude Lanzmann’s 1985 film Shoah—images of cattle cars, station signposts, and the haunting absence of the millions who never made it out. The audio track underscores this shift with a contrast between ambient meditative tones and sharp cries of anguish, echoing the rupture between memory and presence, between terror and transcendence.

👉 In 2013, I had the honor of presenting this installation—The Train from Auschwitz: A Journey from Shame to Self-Realization—at the Harriet and Kenneth Kupferberg Holocaust Center in Queens, NY. It was a sacred offering. A visual prayer. An invitation not only to remember but to transform.

 

Beauty as a Bridge

At times, I am an engineer—evaluating options and executing technical solutions. At other times, I am a designer, composing a symphony of colors and shapes. Then there are moments when I am simply a craftsman, repeating the same movement over and over until it reaches quiet perfection—like tuning an instrument.

I am at peak awareness when I cut a slab of fused glass into flawless rectangles. My hands move with practiced precision; muscle memory keeps my fingers safely clear of the blade. My eyes focus on the fine line between the glass and the edge. My ears follow the arc of a story on Audible. My mind is fully present. This is the space I love most—when body, mind, and spirit align. A state of flow. A stillness where time dissolves.

The beauty I strive to create is my particular tool for reaching the indescribable. My effort to lift ancestral shame is not mine alone—its resonance is universal. The journey toward self-realization, toward the discovery of one’s authentic self, demands preparation. Emotional excavation. Mental clarity. And the humility to accept that our place in the cosmos is—by design—small.

Dedicated to my mother, Nechama Ginzberg (1935)

October 2018